A Series of Thoughts, an Episode of Emotions

I was never raised around perfection but around hard work and determination, but I grew up around it. This was confusing as I as my own person never knew where I really belonged. This created the adaptable, flexible person that I am. I was always confused between what I wanted to do and what I was expected to do. I could not do what was expected from me, as I was cheating myself as a person and I could not do what I wanted as there were certain expectations and I saw too much disappoint in my lifetime and would rather die than disappoint.
This does say a lot about me, about what I am, who I am, and how I go about doing things.

I guess this made me the person that does not do anything without have any form of ulterior motive, good or bad. This was the only way of fulfilling expectations and personal needs, killing two birds with one funky ass stone.
I guess I never stayed true to myself, or maybe I have finally found myself, who knows...

Believe the Old Folk

I was in church and I was looking at the younger generation and it suddenly hit me. What the old people were telling us in Catechism classes (Sunday school for the Protestants) is actually true. Coz let’s be honest, old people are bullshit a lot of the time. But I actually now know what they mean...
We all know that teaching starts at home and all those clichés but damn this one was on point.

The traditions and teachings are really watering down as there is no influence from the elders as they are either dead or could not really care anymore.
When I was younger I thought that they were hyping it up that we should start leading by example and felt that at that age I was too young for that but now I see what they meant, and right now one cannot be that example as we are not around that much. The people that took up the challenge of leading by example are either very hypocritical or are just messed up right about now.

This was a serious reality check for me and next time, take it from me. Believe the hype! And the old folk!

Sloppy Seconds

Ah high school, some of the best and worst times that we could ever have. Do you still remember the term “sloppy seconds”? If you don’t, let me refresh your aged memory, sloppy seconds is when you get with a girl/guy that one of your friends have gotten with.
Now at high school, sloppy seconds was a big no. You never get with a friends previous flame. This was only excusable under extreme circumstances like the annual house party or braai at a friend’s house where alcohol was involved, that was the only exception for having sloppy seconds.
It has occurred to me that after high school that term seizes to exist. So I have been wondering why and have come to the following conclusions: 1) the fight or chase for girls becomes rather tough and people tends not to want to struggle and ends up going for whatever. 2) At high school we all had that certain image to maintain, whether it is the role of jock, nerd or whatever. We would rather be cool than get some.
Thing is, sloppy seconds used to be fun as we have heard the stories (yes guys gossip as well) so we know how far we can push the boundaries and what is allowed and what is not. YEAH I SAID IT!
Just something that came to mind, weird I know. Just remember next time you have sloppy seconds, think of the seconds as a shoe, seeing that it has been worn it, it makes it more comfortable.

Disclaimer: I have not implicated anyone in this piece, and I apologise to all that I have offended.

Are you the shadow..?

Have you ever looked at your shadow and wondered if it is the same person down there? Like its really you...

Today I took a look at my shadow and it seemed different, like it was not mine, or more like it was not me. This got me thinking, are we our shadows, or is it possible for our shadows to be our true selves? (Strange as it may sound)

My Favorite Songs At The Moment...

Music...
The title says its it all...
In no order, mixed genres. local and international tracks...

985 - Shapa
HHP - Mpitse
Kevin Rudolf - I Made It (ft. Birdman, Lil Wayne & Jay Sean)
Young Money - Roger That
Lloyd Banks - Beamer Benz or Bentley (ft. Juelz Santana)
aKing - Against All Odds
Drake - Over
Ludacris - My Chick Bad (ft. Nicki Minaj)
Casette - Who Do You Trust
Snoop Dogg - I Wanna Rock (King G-mix ft. Jay-Z)
Drake - Say Something (ft. Timbaland)
Gramophonedzie - Why Don't You
Culeo Da Song - Webaba (ft. Busi Mhlongo)
Black Coffee - Juju (ft. Zakes Bantwini)
Birdman - Money To Blow (ft. Drake & Lil Wayne)
T.I - I'm Back
Eminem - Not Afraid
Wale - Pretty Girls (ft. Gucci Mane)
B.O.B - Nothin' On You (ft. Bruno Mars)
Miike Snow - Animal
Estelle - Freak (ft. Kardinall Offishall)
Lil Wayne - Drop The World (ft. Eminem)
Pro - Sekele
Ludacris - My Chick Bad (Remix ft. Trina, Diamond & Eve)
Yo Gotti - Women Lie Men Lie (ft. Lil Wayne)
Wale - Diary
New Boyz - Cricketz (ft. Tyga)
Chris Brown - Holla @ Me (ft. Tyga)
Oskido - I Believe
Lloyd Banks - Beamer Benz or Bentley (Remix ft. Juelz Santana & Fabolous)
Jack Parow - Ricky Louw
Dennis Ferrer - Hey Hey
Black Coffee - Superman (ft. Bucie)
Dj Cndo - Ngisemathandweni
Jesse Clegg - Today
Cassette - Who Do you Trust

Friend or Acquaintance?

So the other day I had lunch with an old high school friend of mine and was very surprised to notice that there is a vast level of maturity if being compared to my other friends...

The quality of conversation is also totally different to that of the people that I normally am with. Makes me wonder if real true friends are found at school level or after school... Probably depends on the individual...

Next time when you in a conversation, just take a second to think if that is your friend or just an acquaintance...

How would you know the difference, Friends Actually Care...

Is it still there...?

Does passion still exist? You know, like when you have a passion for something like music, or dancing or anything??? Because it seems to me that we are losing it.

Nobody does things because they have a passion for doing it. Either (1) money is involved (2) you guilt-tripped into doing it or (3) you just going with the flow.

What happened to passionate people? Those should be role-models....

I guess people don't follow there passions anymore as it is not accepted by society? Just imagine telling your parents, "Mom, dad. I want to be an actor when I finish high school." or "When i finish school i want to be a dj." You will either get the speech about how you gonna make a living bla bla bla etc etc etc, or one of those other clichès that I don't wanna get in to... They stupid, partially realistic, but stupid. It is quite sad that our norm has become Primary School ---> High School ---> University, Somewhere in there we want something different.

Passions vary aswell.

Our passions are what separates us really as humans. This is what we strive for.

Hopefully alls well that ends well, with or without passion...