“Hello darkness my old friend/I’ve come to speak to you again” – Sound of Silence by Simon and Garfunkel
Dude I can feel my zest for life slipping away slowly and surely. I know my time around is limited. I know that I have made a difference in at least one person’s life, what have you done? Are you still the same dull, stupid and ignorant person you were 1, 2,3,4,5 years ago? If you have made a change, was it a positive or negative one? I know all the changes I brought are positive, and the ones that have memories of me are fond ones. Can you say the same about you? I know that somewhere there is/was at least one person that has or still is looking up to me because I have done something that that he/she can recognize with, have you?
Take time and think, then welcome a rude awakening...
(Another old Blog Post, some time last year)
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Random Post of Anger
I guess frustration is getting the better of me. Well i am not even granted the chance of being alone some pompous idiot should always try and take me to the point of no return. At times i wonder what i am capable of seeing that silent rage is of more danger than any other out there. I don’t really wanna hurt anybody, fighting not in me. But i can damn well make you look like you were in an accident. You talk like you always been up there and all that, yet you have the same small town mentality like those before you, those with, and most likely those after you.
(I cant even remember this one, guess i was angry about something.)
(I cant even remember this one, guess i was angry about something.)
23 June 2010: Better Conversation
Don’t you have anything better to talk about? All of you are the same, the conversation stays the same. Sometimes following the crowd makes you part of the idiotic-ness that is the crowd.
Individualism is slowly dying and the ones we laugh and point fingers at are the ones that are keeping it alive for the next to come.
(Blog post from June 23 1010)
Individualism is slowly dying and the ones we laugh and point fingers at are the ones that are keeping it alive for the next to come.
(Blog post from June 23 1010)
What's Behind The Name
As everybody knows or can see, the name of my blog is biological misfit and many are wondering what’s up with the name.
When I created my blog, I was in a bad space and wasn’t really feeling human. I felt like a misfit, like I don’t belong, so that where the misfit part comes in.
Ever wondered if you adapted? Or if those are your biological parents? I wasn’t, I’m just trying to show you where it comes from. As I said before I was in a bad space, bad state of mind, like everything was just bad. Knowing I’m my parents biological son, they couldn’t get the “adoptive parents blame”.
So one day it all just came together and that’s now the name come along. Nothing special really
When I created my blog, I was in a bad space and wasn’t really feeling human. I felt like a misfit, like I don’t belong, so that where the misfit part comes in.
Ever wondered if you adapted? Or if those are your biological parents? I wasn’t, I’m just trying to show you where it comes from. As I said before I was in a bad space, bad state of mind, like everything was just bad. Knowing I’m my parents biological son, they couldn’t get the “adoptive parents blame”.
So one day it all just came together and that’s now the name come along. Nothing special really
I Hate The Answer: “Just Asking”
I find it really irritating when I get asked a question and when I want to know why I’m being asked this; I get the response “just asking”. Nobody ask a question for no reason. If I ask you what you had for supper, I probably want to compare your supper to mine, and if mine was better, you will hear about it.
Nobody’s life is that boring that you asks a question for the “just asking” reason. Another thing that I’ve noticed is whenever one gets the “just asking” answer, it’s a question that you would normally not be asked.
You know what; all these “just’” responses are a load of bullshit. “Just wondering”, “just asking”, “some just” and we can go on and on.
This was just me having to say something about something
Nobody’s life is that boring that you asks a question for the “just asking” reason. Another thing that I’ve noticed is whenever one gets the “just asking” answer, it’s a question that you would normally not be asked.
You know what; all these “just’” responses are a load of bullshit. “Just wondering”, “just asking”, “some just” and we can go on and on.
This was just me having to say something about something
My Biggest Fear
Many times I sit with my over-active imagination (not literally) and wonder what my biggest fear is. It’s not my own death, sometimes I look forward to it. Do not ask why. I don’t really fear any type of insect or something, maybe in the heat of the moment it will make me cringe but it’s not something major.
Tonight (while cleaning my mind/escaping from reality) I could actually categorise my fears. Kind of weird! The death of some immediate family member (sibling or parents) is on the list, not right o top though, close to the top ja. Then comes the close friends and so-called “adopted family” you know, the guy you know so long you’re practically brothers, ja that’s the one I’m talking about.
But at the start of this year, I made a decision. It took me 21 years to make it though. I will start looking out for myself first, selfish don’t you think? If you do, that’s your problem. Most of my time is always spent doing something for somebody, even if there is no benefit in me doing it. Modern day Ghandi ne? Anyway it has been this way most of what I can remember. I’d do something because someone wanted me to do it and in some magical way I’ll end up enjoying it.
But back to what I fear most… personally I feel that I’m living for other people or that somebody excluding myself is running/controlling my life. This now brings me to my biggest fear…
My biggest fear is that; when my life finally becomes mine, will I really know what to do with it, or even know, ill just fuck it up.
My advice: make sure that everything that is supposed to be yours, is yours. If not, make it yours.
Tonight (while cleaning my mind/escaping from reality) I could actually categorise my fears. Kind of weird! The death of some immediate family member (sibling or parents) is on the list, not right o top though, close to the top ja. Then comes the close friends and so-called “adopted family” you know, the guy you know so long you’re practically brothers, ja that’s the one I’m talking about.
But at the start of this year, I made a decision. It took me 21 years to make it though. I will start looking out for myself first, selfish don’t you think? If you do, that’s your problem. Most of my time is always spent doing something for somebody, even if there is no benefit in me doing it. Modern day Ghandi ne? Anyway it has been this way most of what I can remember. I’d do something because someone wanted me to do it and in some magical way I’ll end up enjoying it.
But back to what I fear most… personally I feel that I’m living for other people or that somebody excluding myself is running/controlling my life. This now brings me to my biggest fear…
My biggest fear is that; when my life finally becomes mine, will I really know what to do with it, or even know, ill just fuck it up.
My advice: make sure that everything that is supposed to be yours, is yours. If not, make it yours.
Clearing The Mind/ Escaping From Reality
This just hit me; I’m sitting (literally) and wondering how other people clear their minds, you know that quick escape from reality we all need every now and then. Getting away from reality is vital for a persons’ mental well-being. Just remember to go to back to reality; you don’t want to end up in a loony bin or something.
So how do you clear you mind/escape from reality? I know many people I know many people cook just to take a breather from life and remember that there is actually something (whatever “something is) out there. Other people go to gym, or yoga; apparently it’s rather therapeutic, I would think that it is. There are so many other options out there like jogging, playing sport, scrap booking and the list goes on. Not to sound cheesy but options are endless.
The beauty of clearing the mind/escaping from reality is that you get that very rare chance to focus on one thing! There’s nothing in the back of your mind that’s constantly reminding you of stuff that you still have to do. I guess it gives you the chance to be you.
I know nobody is asking or wondering but my way of clearing my mind/escaping from reality is sitting on the toilet. (Somebody probably thinking “euww gross”) Let me explain. I won’t even be taking a dump/crap/shit/kak/number 2 or whatever you call it these days. I’ll just go and sit on the toilet and escape, let the world pass me by a bit, drive in life’s slow lane because that is a very rare time that nobody wants/needs anything from a person. (Just don’t hog the toilet, its irritating)
Remember that clearing the mind is vital because like anything else it can get clogged up.
So clear/escape! Do whatever you need to do! As long as for that 1min, 1hour or whatever, you are doing you.
So how do you clear you mind/escape from reality? I know many people I know many people cook just to take a breather from life and remember that there is actually something (whatever “something is) out there. Other people go to gym, or yoga; apparently it’s rather therapeutic, I would think that it is. There are so many other options out there like jogging, playing sport, scrap booking and the list goes on. Not to sound cheesy but options are endless.
The beauty of clearing the mind/escaping from reality is that you get that very rare chance to focus on one thing! There’s nothing in the back of your mind that’s constantly reminding you of stuff that you still have to do. I guess it gives you the chance to be you.
I know nobody is asking or wondering but my way of clearing my mind/escaping from reality is sitting on the toilet. (Somebody probably thinking “euww gross”) Let me explain. I won’t even be taking a dump/crap/shit/kak/number 2 or whatever you call it these days. I’ll just go and sit on the toilet and escape, let the world pass me by a bit, drive in life’s slow lane because that is a very rare time that nobody wants/needs anything from a person. (Just don’t hog the toilet, its irritating)
Remember that clearing the mind is vital because like anything else it can get clogged up.
So clear/escape! Do whatever you need to do! As long as for that 1min, 1hour or whatever, you are doing you.
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